I'm sorry...

Updated: Nov 10, 2018

Dear rational self,

I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you.  The signs were all there and I should have removed myself from the situation so that I could recharge and re-center as I clearly wasn’t coping, but my sleep-deprived venomous tongue got the better of me and has damaged a relationship I valued dearly.

I realise now that I can’t please everyone and that it is important to check in with myself to see how I’m doing.  I realise now that it is okay to say no when I feel overburdened or over-committed and that I shouldn’t feel guilty for doing this to protect myself or my time.  I also realise that in order for me to be the best version of myself I need to be a fully-functioning healthy and happy individual which means getting a good night’s sleep, having healthy relationships (by re-evaluating/removing myself from toxic ones) and actually liking, accepting and being comfortable with who I am. 

I am going to try and salvage the relationship I had but also vow to myself to listen and trust my instincts in the future.  I vow to learn to look out for the signs and give myself time to think about my answers when I feel overburdened and over-committed so that I can formulate a response rather than dive straight into my usual people pleasing mode.  I vow to be true to myself and to others by reaching out to my social circle not only for the fun things but for when I need those social connections to help me feel re-centered so that I can work towards being the best version of myself.  I also vow not to compare myself with others but instead honour and appreciate the true unique qualities that make me who I am.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to reflect on my shortcomings and provide me with a clearer perspective on the matter so that I can see that I cannot maintain my own “perfectionist” state of play that I impose upon myself 24 hours, 7 days a week.  Here’s to honouring my own well-being and allowing others to do the same so that we can all aim to be the best version of ourselves. 

Love always,

From a wiser, kinder, happier and more rational me!


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